Loss of lack or Lack of loss

You dimwit... Stop losing your wallet already!

As I retraced my steps for 10 minutes and finally retrieved it, I wondered at the lack of panicking, the embarrassment, simply put emotions.

People would panick. They would be embarrassed or have some sort of relevant emotions. They would if the thing they had lost is precious. Goes to conclude it is not as precious as I thought. I could just stay out the entire night, and simply not care.

There is only one last precious thing for me to lose. And once that comes to happen, I wonder briefly what I would be in the end...